To my surprise, my 70s are nicer than my 60s and my 60s than my 50s, and I wouldn't wish my teens and 20s on my enemies.
I didn't want to be on the losing side. I was fed up with Jewish weakness, timidity and fear. I didn't want any more Jewish sentimentality and Jewish suffering. I was sickened by our sad songs.
Praying privately in churches, I began to discover that heaven was my true home and also that it was here and now, woven into this life.
During the Second World War, evacuated to non-Jewish households, I encountered Christianity at home and in school.